My Personal Feeling of Cringe
When I look at what I produce I sometimes feel a cringe sensation wash over me. Thoughts like 'is that really me?' or 'did I really think like that?' spring to mind. In the moment this feeling feels uncomfortable and sometimes feels like embarrassment. In the past this feeling felt so uncomfortable that I would frequently go out of my way to not do things that might trigger this feeling in my future self. Often this would mean avoiding the unknown. My logic was that even if I didn't particularly like everything within the confines of my known world, at least it was safe. Living with this logic mean't that life was more about surviving rather than thriving. It also meant that my world would fundamentally stay the same, as I was living in what Albert Einstein terms as a state of insanity - doing the same thing and expecting a different outcome.
Cringe means Growth
The truth of the matter is that if I am not cringing at my past self then I am not growing. If I don't feel a certain level of cringe it is because I still fundamentally agree with my past thinking process and I cannot see beyond this thinking to perceive a larger view of the world and my place in it. The fact is that we don't know everything and from what I gather, we never will in this lifetime anyway. This for me turns life into an adventure and I can associate the cringe feeling with that of growth. Instead of feelings coming from thoughts of 'horror' I can look at myself and see a guy who is open to learning, being inevitably wrong on a lot of things and being OK with that, heck I could even afford myself a chuckle as I think to myself 'thank God putting myself out there mean't my thinking process is free to evolve'.
Did this blog post help you? Does fear of the cringe factor hold you back from trying something new and exciting? Would you like to have a clearer head? If you have any insights, questions or recommendations feel free to leave a comment or drop me an e-mail.